With Attachement Comes Jealousy

ATTACHMENT

I become attached to people easily. I feel like I can bond with someone very quickly and let them see me for me. Once that happens, I hate to let the friendship go to waste like it has so many times before. I consider friendships to be very special and dear to me. It really bothers me when I see two friends get in a fight over nothing and suddenly they’ve stopped talking to each other, ending the friendship for good. I just want to walk up to them and shake them, ask them how they could let a friend go so easily? But I digress. I’m attached to this new person, so what? It’s normal for me. But there’s more to attachment than meets the eye….

JEALOUSY

I can be an extremely jealous person and I’m sure most people can relate. Jealousy is a common thing. It’s a hurtful thing — self-inflicted pain in my opinion. Nobody else makes you be that way. Only you can control your jealous ways. That’s very hard for me. So I let it go, I let myself get jealous. It mostly happens with people. I get jealous that someone has a talent that I don’t, or that they look a certain way that I don’t, or that they have an amazing sense of humor that I don’t have. I suppose that’s why my self-esteem is so low — I compare myself to those around me. And it makes it worse when those people with the talent or looks or wit get praised for it. I’m not saying it’s a bad thing, I just wish that it could be me, getting praise for having those same things. Actually, I take that back. I don’t need praise. I just want those qualities. But the point I’m trying to make is that my jealousy meter sky-rockets when a person that I’m attached to is the one giving the praise or, more appropriately, the attention.

P.S. Now that I think about it, I have access to Pizza Stop…

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